This is just somewhere I hope I wont have to hide anymore.

I love fashion - the colors, the cuts, the trends - but this space will be more than that. This will be a living memory. Posts dotted with the special people in my life. Pictures, words, emotions. I want to remember them all. I want to pin down every moment that means everything to me. Good or bad, I don't care, I just want to remember. People I love, people I hate. Things that excite me, things that frustrate me. Smiles and tears, heartaches heartbreaks, I want to keep everything with me.

I'm Mavis, and sometimes I wish I could be perfect.

80% Locked.
 

Should do a proper update soon. Urgh I keep saying that. But for now, Sushi comes first. Appt at 10 for her heart cardiogram or something. Super freaked out and worrying like crazy but we'll see. Need to sleep now if not I'll go nuts from fretting. Nighty.

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Wow look at my round face.

Ok whole purpose of this post was because I had a good hair day. And I felt happy for no reason in a long while because sometimes, all it takes is just a cheery tie dye dress and some rope sandals.

Wow my hair is getting kinda long, isn't it? Maybe not to some people, like those who have hair till their ankles, but this is probably the longest since I was a kid. Of course, my current hair is so dry now - no thanks to the multiple bleaching - whereas I had shiny, healthy hair back then.

Maybe this post is just another way to procrastinate, because I really don't feel like studying for my Advertising paper.

Ooooh I will be turning 19 in a few days. Somehow birthdays don't really matter to me anymore. I am trading in my box of sentimentality for a whole tank of reality and cynicism. I didn't even realize I was turning 19 till my girls (and guys) got cakes and candles for me to blow out. In advance, of course. 19 seems so old. Most of the time, I still feel 16.

That day, Farley and I got talking about further studies and other... future stuff. I told him "Can we not do this now? I don't feel like arranging, doing, planning stuff." He said we'll have to start organising stuff soon to which I replied, "I just don't wanna grow up."

I think I kinda surprised myself. You know how when you say things out, you make it more real, less airy-fairy? I think I have been fantasizing about Peter Panism deep inside me for quite some time. I guess it took actual words to make me realize that.

Ummm I'm getting so incoherent. I actually wanted to fret about whether I should get hair/eyelashes/acrylic extensions when I head to BKK on the 26th, one day after aforementioned bday. Yes, 26th. I must be really moronic, or have insanely bad luck because I just found out that's the day the Thaksin thingy court verdict is out. Which means turmoil and trouble. HOPEFULLY NOT. I AM CROSSING ALL MY FINGERS AND TOES NOW.

See, getting all the extensions done there is really cheap, and since I'm going there might as well get them done right? Thing is, my hair is already quite long. Not long enough, but I'm happy with it right now. But it's really dry and I just know that with extensions, I will be dealing with brutal tangles 24/7. I'm talking major furballs. As for eyelashes, getting them done means I don't have to wear eye make up (major yay) but I don't want my real ones to fall out. Gayboy always says my eyelashes are balding, because they're long and nice but way too thin. Grr. Acrylic - I hate them cos I can't remove my contacts with them but it's cheap there and overpriced here. End of discussion.

Ok I have no idea what I'm going on about anymore. I'm tired.

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Say hi to my sleeping buddy.

Woke up at 6 plus for an 8am class. I was on time, the Frenchman only came at 830. Wow. Velly velly sleepy now. Farley's gonna come home with Peperoni's pepperoni pizza before we head townside for a movie.

I kinda love my bangs now. Really low-maintenance. But this love is so flighty. Once they grow out I bet I'll hate them.

Din din with the fam at Hotel Re. My re-cut bangs are too short and make me look like a retard.

F21 headband, Jil Sander shirt, F21 acid washed shorts you can't see, Topshop tights, Balenciaga bag and Ferragamo flats.